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2 notes "no point helping people who can’t even help themselves, i.e myself."
0 notes TATW #424 - fucking amazing. Cannot wait until you guys visit us in AUS again. 

TATW #424 - fucking amazing. Cannot wait until you guys visit us in AUS again. 

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mixed emotions.

Do i really want to stop? is it really the best thing for me to do? hmmm i don’t know… pretty hard to get it off my mind. just being honest. Really altering the way i look at things what the fuck is going on with me… i think ill fall for it again seriously i dont think i have it in me to stop yet. Being sober is way overrated haha! In this short amount of time of being sober, i feel no better. Smiling through it all can only get you so far.

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9-5PM

For some reason im actually quite excited for work tomorrow i guess you could say that work actually keeps me in order im also able to get my mind off things since im always being flustered with things to do. I guess the only struggles are getting up and travelling but other than that its a pretty easy lifestyle to settle too. It really is a nice escape from the life i live at home. Makes me feel like im actually doing something good in my life.

0 notes i don’t need help i don’t need anyone to talk too i just need some time alone. From experience talking got me nowhere absolutely no fucking point in it. It only gives an opportunity for the curious to find out whats going on and break you apart. I really see no harm in what im doing to myself? I’m the type of person to keep everything bottled up inside me i don’t trust anyone don’t take it personal but that’s how i’ve always been.

i don’t need help i don’t need anyone to talk too i just need some time alone. From experience talking got me nowhere absolutely no fucking point in it. It only gives an opportunity for the curious to find out whats going on and break you apart. I really see no harm in what im doing to myself? I’m the type of person to keep everything bottled up inside me i don’t trust anyone don’t take it personal but that’s how i’ve always been.

0 notes one day we will meet again… it’s moments like this where you wish that were timeless.

one day we will meet again… it’s moments like this where you wish that were timeless.

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0 notes This is as real as it gets.  i wake up everyday to the same old shitty life for the sake of living. Not cut out for this thing called life. I wish i could take enough for me to not wake up tomorrow morning. Been around for way too long, disappointed too many people and too many broken ties to mend. Better off dead. It’s sad being able to make others happy but yourself. Cocaine speaking by the way… (Poor effort mate HAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

This is as real as it gets. 

i wake up everyday to the same old shitty life for the sake of living. Not cut out for this thing called life. I wish i could take enough for me to not wake up tomorrow morning. Been around for way too long, disappointed too many people and too many broken ties to mend. Better off dead. It’s sad being able to make others happy but yourself. Cocaine speaking by the way… (Poor effort mate HAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

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who was i kidding

I think i’ll be better off alone, no friends or family. Just me. Alone. Positive change who was i kidding? It’s funny how the only joy i get in life kicks in after 30 minutes after consumption/snorting. Stopping me, well thats just being greedy why can’t i be happy? Artificial or not its better than being in my sober state of mind. No sugar coating here guys im just putting it out there…

Seriously what went wrong with me…? i miss the old me.

UPDATE: hahaha lastnight was crazy felt not really sure if i was meant to be tripping out or not but did have trouble sleeping getting nightmares, rises in body temperature and a motherfucking HNNNNNNNNNNNNGGG of a headache. Had my little bursts of euphoria and energy i was actually pretty smashed on my bean bag hahahahaaha coked to the shitttt!

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